Pffft..Ode To Singledom
It took me such a long time to finally understand the merits of singledom.
Before I came here my mum aunts etc kept asking me too ‘look out for good guys’ lol I don’t know why they are so kancheong…I am not even 20 yet afterall. So anyway…of course that was quite programmed in my mind..I mean, new place, new people…something could indeed happen. And when nothing did, of course there was the frusfration and the helplessness and the embarassment. And in an ironic twist, it took me the observation of an ex and his girlfriend to finally, FINALLY understand that being in a relationship isn’t all it’s hyped up to be, when in my mind being in a relationship is the best and I always lamented about singledom even when my coupled friends tell me that if they could choose they would want to be single now.
When I see how he treats her sometimes I get quite upset…she is such a good girl and deserves so much more…so many people think so. It hurts me to see her apologizing for things that are not her fault, or always being so forgiving, or always acting different in front of us and in front of him. Sigh it is none of my concern and I’m sorry for being kaypo, but she is my close friend and I just do not enjoy looking at her upset because of him.
Seriously though, I ask myself how the hell did I ever like/love him whenever he treats her crappily. Could it have been the looks? Now I feel that he was so vain and way too proud of the looks. Could it have been the wisecracks? They just sound annoying and discriminating now. I reckon I finally can see him for who he is now that I’m not blinded too…but maybe I’m too biased now too. Sigh…who needs a boyfriend anyway..sure it’s sweet and aww and I love you baby and kissing is fun and so is making out but I reckon trading that for freedom and going out with whoever I want and doing whatever I want and not need to report to anyone is awesome too. One thing crappy about being single is feeling like the fifth wheel whenever you are with your coupled friends though.
Anyway, these are just my thoughts that I very foolishly published to the whole freaking world wtf. So sorry if I’ve offended anyone
Chero Chero! 
finally… you are happy for not having a boyfriend. haha. actually right… it’s not about having or not having a boyfriend/girlfriend/fuckpartner/makeoutbuddy. it’s all about indulging in the goodness of life. even when life’s showing its bitchiest face at you. it sure is an awesome thing when one can finally say, fuck the world, fuck my life. it’s about me, it’s about now. *smokes in something funny* ~~ah…. {^_^}
| Posted 14 years, 9 months agoAmir: hahaha correct correct =P been smoking anything funny, dude? eh eh bile balik penang?
| Posted 14 years, 9 months agoim gonna be in penang for a very brief time. from 24th August to errmm.. 10th september. i think. can’t remember the ticket date anymore
Posted 14 years, 9 months agohi there, plz pass a msg down to nellyn for me?
“theres a panda back in msia missing her”…
i’m having problems reaching her…
so yeah, thanks =) oh and btw….
good luck in ur vet course 🙂
happy winter =)
| Posted 14 years, 9 months agoPanda: Awwww so sweet =D How’d you find my blog anyway? Googled ‘Nellyn Tay’? =P I told her d btw haha
| Posted 14 years, 9 months agololx, i guess she couldnt be bothered =(
| Posted 14 years, 9 months agosince shes so busy with her current bf =/
oh well, i was blog hopping, and saw her picture…
nice turkeys btw..rofl… 🙂
wait….aren’t you the current bf? hahaha i thought you were lol..who are you?? =D
| Posted 14 years, 9 months agolol… i’ll let your mind wonder, i’m definitely not the current bf..
anyway… take care of that clutz 4 me will ya lol..
shes quite absent minded with her surroundings =) like..seriously
anyway i better stop coming here..
cheerios… <3~
ps. thanks for passing the msg, do take care 😉
| Posted 14 years, 9 months agoomg babe how many pandas u know lol
| Posted 14 years, 9 months agoone happy panda and one sad =(